My Pain Has No Cure

My Pain Has No Cure


I’m 18 years old. My first semester in college was going amazing
and I thought nothing would go wrong Before I knew it my finals were approaching and I found myself studying harder and harder for them I just wanted to do well. But, in one gruesome night I woke up and I was in a
kind of pain that I would never forget. An indescribable pain Almost like someone was bashing my face with a baseball bat repeatedly. It felt like my brain was telling me
that something was wrong. I’ve always been sick. When I was 9 I got allergic rhinitis and had pneumonia that went on for months. I have asthma and walking up a few small stairs causes me to be out of breath. I would have headaches every night for a year straight and my nose would be running like a broken tap every day for nine years. I was used to being sick but nothing prepared me for the next big wave that hit me when I was already drowning. After three days in pain and not being able to sleep,
I saw my clinical doctor. He examined me and said my throat was white and that I was not drinking enough water. I thought that wasn’t possible because my neck was hurting, not my throat. Still he prescribed me a thick bill of medication and said it would make me feel better and sent me home. I didn’t feel better. Worse in fact. The next few days my pain got so bad that my face swelled to a pumpkin, my ears were going deaf, I couldn’t eat, sleep or even speak I was frustrated because at this point, I have not been able to sleep for a week and
my exams were fast approaching And I began feeling the pressures of possibly
letting my parents down. I didn’t want to fail, but at the same time I felt like dying. I felt the excruciating pain in my neck, face, and head. And to try and distract myself from it I washed my face with scalding hot water. I was frustrated and hated myself for being distracted instead of focusing on my studies “No I’m not going down like this”, I said to myself. Not when I can get an A All I wanted was peace for two hours. Enough to get at least a few lessons into my mind but I couldn’t even have that! I decided it was enough and took
a cab to the nearest clinic. My doctor treated me as if I was a little girl looking at me
like I was beneath him or lying somehow I was dying but he didn’t seem to
realize or care and like the room I was in, His expressions and concern for me
were cold. His fix for me was another
dose of painkillers. “Good luck with your exams”, he said. As I left the clinic with a pinch of peace hoping that the medication would work this time. I tossed and turned the entire night. At this point, it was a week and a half
since I fully slept. I managed to wake up and take my first exam then my second the day after But that third day was when I truly broke down When my body and
mine finally gave up. I woke up with the most unbelievable, painfully sensitive pain a human being could ever feel. I was struggling to even drink water I called home and cried begging for help! “Hang on my sister”, said. “I’m coming to get you.” She came an hour later and rushed me to the same clinical doctor I went to see before. “I don’t see anything wrong and everything looks alright you just need rest”, he said. I couldn’t believe it! Alright? “I’m not alright! I’m suffering in pain, my eyes are sinking, my pupils are dilated, my face is swollen, and I haven’t been able to sleep for two weeks straight!”, I told him. Still, he sent me home as if I was being overly dramatic. I screamed and cried as I was trying to
sleep. I begged God begged someone to end the pain.
To make it stop! Soon, I became scared to live. I had never forgotten or skipped any medications even though I had a lot to take But I was at my last straw. I popped two sleeping pills into
my mouth and drank all the painkillers I had. “I am finally going to sleep”, I said to myself. One, two, three hours had now passed. Eventually the entire night and I was still awake. Why? Why am I awake! The sleeping pills I took were strong enough to put my mom who had sleeping issues to sleep. But why was I awake?
Why aren’t the painkillers working? I asked my sister to take me back to the doctors.
This time he was confused and asked why I looked tired and how I lost so much weight. I told him something was wrong but I didn’t know what. “What medicine did you take?”, he asked. Now in a delusional state and laughing I told him the sleeping pills and painkillers he’d prescribed. He laid me down on the examination table and gave me a very strong shot of painkillers. “This would put anyone to sleep”, he said. The next thing I remembered
was my sister taking me home. I went to him again that evening. This time the colors in his face drained as he saw me standing in front of him. He couldn’t believe I was still awake after that injection and told me to go to the hospital’s ER immediately. Still in pain with no clue why and completely delusional from the lack of sleep, it took 2 hours until I was seen. After a quick examination he told me nothing was wrong. This went back and forth while I stood in the middle of the emergency room as I was crying like a 3 yr old. Until finally a nurse called me into the room where everyone was waiting for their results. She jabbed a needle into my left arm which turned out to be another painkiller shot. I screamed and begged my father to take the pain away! Because it was just unbearable at this point! The doctor came shortly after and told
me that I had trigeminal neuralgia “Google he told me as he walked away” What? I thought to myself I googled it on my phone and saw images that I couldn’t understand. I had no idea what the doctor was talking about and it only confused me more! They transferred me from the emergency room to an inpatient and with a cocktail of some sort, injected something into my IV bag. Finally my body sank into the bed as I drifted to sleep. I slept for three days until regaining
consciousness. I was released from the hospital after one week. Some research I learned that trigeminal neuralgia is one of the most painful diseases known to mankind. And at 18 years old I had it. It’s been three months since that day and I’ve had three hospital visits and was told by these clinics and hospitals to not come back because
there’s nothing they can do for me. That I will need to live like this. I Suffer every day trying to contain my
screams and cries of pain. I hide behind a poker face when in public but really I still feel the same pains like it’s the first time. Talking hurts, drinking hurts, and even sleeping hurts. I’ve experienced depression after being admitted to the hospital numerous times Unfortunately painkillers don’t work for
me. And my neurologist tries to help me live as comfortably as possible but I know I’m getting worse. My life is hanging on a thread. I understand what it feels like to want to give up. It’s not easy. It’s hard to live with any kind of pain. I know. I’ve been in pain all my life. To everyone out there who is hurting,
I hope you are holding on. I know it’s hard I don’t know how much pain you are in, but I want you to know, You’re strong and that you can get through it.

100 comments on “My Pain Has No Cure

  1. The Fancy Fox Post author

    Jeeze ikr does doctors are insane my brother had npemonia or whatever and the doctors said he was OK!?

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  2. Shadow Sweetheart Post author

    Anyone else get abdominal pains every night, upper left side? It woke me up today 🙁

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  3. Potato Post author

    Her: "an indescribable pain"

    1 second later

    "It was almost like someone was bashing my head with a baseball bat"

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  4. Mz. Lyons14 Post author

    I suffer from chronic pain and fibromyalgia so I can't even imagine that type of pain!! The minute I stated this video I started crying because I remembered how I felt the first time i experienced chronic pain! The doctors where I live treat you poorly if you're there because of pain! I not the same and I'm not claiming to be! I just saying I understand…

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  5. Christy CoOl Post author

    Please do ms story . It will help some..least.. anyway people to maybe understand us . There are misunderstandings in this illness ?

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  6. Miraculous ladybug Fan club miniatures Post author

    I have asthma too I am fighting now and taking a flu injection I am holding from stress from school waking up at 5:30 every evening going all filling tiered not able keep myself awake the I arrive at my secondary 1 I have been sick for pass 7 months and medician not working but make me drowsy every single day I just wanted be HOMESCHOOL ALREADY!!!!!!!!! I very sick every evening did n't have energy to talk to anyone

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  7. hannah Post author

    Wth with the doctors here ? Are they living in 1800s ??? How could they be so careless and like there is nothing they can do ?! And your sister should have care more and your family too.. i really hate careless people !

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  8. hannah Post author

    Did you try to go to another country and totally another doctors ? Cuz i know some one has the same thing and he did a surgery and his pain became less

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  9. Rubi Diez Post author

    Bro literally your story is my stories except i did not let my asthma takeover my life i joined track and i love sports but my jest hurts all the time i through up blood but live life to the fullest ya know YOLOOOOO ??‍♀️??and a few weeks later i was also diagnosed with chronic headaches which there is no cure for image the worst migraine you ever hade x10000 and im only 12 ?

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  10. Americo Resto Jr Post author

    I've also been in pain try Android 50 or anavar these are steroids that helped me when I was younger small doses for 2 month and 5 month off. I've tried everything nothing good luck God Bless. Ask your doctor to try steroids in small amounts, but not the generic steriod it has to be brand

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  11. Quickle pickle The cat Post author

    Should I be scared now? Because I feel terrified, I am so sorry you have such awful pain,

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  12. Jack Turner Post author

    I'm sorry but I know this is a real, horrible disease and god bless anyone that has to deal with it. But if you think this is real, you're abit slow.

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  13. Anchin Wang Post author

    I used to have headaches ice didn’t work Untill i Put Enough Ice And it ways enough! 4 Days long!

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  14. RosaManeki Post author

    Sry but constantly going to the same doctor who's obviously misdiagnosing you is just stupidity on your part.

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  15. SadieLady 116 Post author

    I looked at the thumbnail and already knew what it was from seeing stories of it before. Some doctors man?☹️??‍♀️ Kelsey from Buzzfeed

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  16. Sting 2.0 Post author

    I'm so sorry for what you live like it must be horrible. Anxiety and Depression ruined my life so i dedicated my time to support people with it.

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  17. Jill Anderson Post author

    This is called ‘the suicide disease’. Because of the nerves involved, there is no pain pill that can help. You can “try” alternative therapies-massage, trigger point, acupressure or acupuncture, cbd oils (some find cbd WITH the thc helpful). Think of the pain scale. 1-10 is most pain. I have only known pain in my life-my pain scale runs 10-20. Someone with this disease runs 40-50 when they have a flare. Some find ice or heat help. Some have tried Reiki. It’s seriously the worst pain imaginable times 100. I’m sorry for anyone that has it. There is a YouTube video where someone tried cbd for it-and it does help. Try it, or at least look into it. Make sure no thc unless you are going to sleep. Good luck!!!!!

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  18. Bethany Schofield Post author

    This nearly made me bawl because I needed to hear it right now. I have post thrombotic syndrome from complications of a DVT from 10 years ago and I live in pain. The humidity that summer brings makes it worse and this month has made me want to give up. Thank you for sharing your story <3

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  19. Codehawk64 Post author

    From someone who has its own baggage of incurable pain because of spondilytis, i salute you just for surviving and staying alive, and i hope some miracle happens to somehow fix the disease.

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  20. Debby Copnell Post author

    God loves you ,and if you except Jesus as yore Lord and saver he can help you throw yore pain,he
    Loves you so very much , and you.can Be at peace with him ,I hope you get better ,I know yore surfing ,but if you give yore heart and mind to him and repent he will forgive you ,yore not alone you are loved and yore worthy .you don't have to but I wood like engine to know God is real and God is love .❤bhy
    Bless you

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  21. elina Comments Post author

    Her:I feel like dying and suffering my face is swollen and I can't sleep for two days straight

    School nurse:here's a icepack

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  22. Antti Kettunen Post author

    Such pain can be caused by Cervical spinal stenosis. The diagnosis of this condition requires an MRI scan.

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  23. kpopcutie 11 Post author

    I am 10 years old and I feel so tired! Not like "I hate school and chores and blah blah blah" tired, but collapsing as soon as I wake up of tired!!
    I also am very slim, my friends mothers worry about me!!!!
    My mom tells me to "eat more!" But when I eat like 4 meals in one day instead of 3, I feel dead. I sleep like a log, beddie time is 9:30… what could be wrong?
    My mom is a doctor and she doesn't even mention it!
    Anyone smart (well, everyone here is smart, in their own way!) tell me a prediction of what's wrong and how to get my moms attention!?!!!

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  24. AITB gacha and roblox Post author

    ……

    Emotional pain hurts more because people literally give up on life in my opinion

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  25. 338JennaL Post author

    Blue Widow is a prolific hybrid cross between parent strains Blueberry and White Widow. Leafly reviewers praise Blue Widow for its anti-inflammatory qualities, and perhaps the reason for this is Blue Widow’s rich terpene profile that typically boasts high levels of caryophyllene alongside a hearty cannabinoid content. heard this was very helpful to someone who had the same problem. she tried white widow only.

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  26. Undecisive Angel Post author

    I had a doctor like this. He took my blood and I was almost crying in pain from the needle. He said I was lying about it hurting.
    I have anemia. Iron medicine is known to cause stomach upset. I told the doctor it bothered my stomach. He said I was just being picky or I was too incompetent to have it with water.
    He changed the medicine and I threw up 11 times in one school day. My dad picked me up, the nurse told him what happened.
    The doctor said I was being picky and I needed to get used to it.
    I stopped taking the medicine, I stopped going to the doctor. That was 3 years ago

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  27. Kourtni Pullen Post author

    I relate to this so much. I have multiple sclerosis and I've been up for almost three days now in pain. I'm losing feeling in my dominant hand, my right hand. But as I'm losing feeling it also feels like somebody is hitting me with a hammer repeatedly. It started on just the outside of my pinky is slowly spreading across my hand. I have new health insurance so I'm not even able to make an appointment for another couple of weeks. I came across this video by accident and although I would never wish pain on anybody else it's good to know that I am not alone.

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  28. Klick Witch Post author

    nothing more frustrating then doctors telling you nothing is wrong when you know that's not the case.

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  29. Tamar Chloe Texting Post author

    One like= one slap for doctor

    I know you cannot do that, BUT IF YOI COULD this is how many slaps he gets

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  30. My dog pooped on my computer Post author

    I was always get sick since i was 7, my body always hurt so bad, i felt tired all the time, my body felt heavy, felt like it falling a part, felt too hot, some times too cold and some times, i can't even breath. One time, i was walking but then, my body all the sudden stop and i can't move, i started to panic and fell down on the floor, luckly my mom got home in time. A lot of times, i was in so much pain so i start thinking about ending my life, but i was too weak to even move, now i'm 11, everything still hurt but atleast now i'm strong enough to run…

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  31. Rhiannon Hausel Post author

    My father has trigeminal neuralgia and it is indescribable. He went under a surgery called microvascular decompression. Although it made his worse, to others it worked. Find the right doctor, do what you can. This disease needs to be more public because of its severity!

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  32. Itzz Shotgunzz Post author

    Date 01-10-19 | Level I | 16

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    The join blockDate 01-10-19 | Level I | 16

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    Assign the value 20 to the variable num.

    41. Which block puts two numbers 2 and 4 together to form 24?

    The join blockDate 01-10-19 | Level I | 16

    35. Use the following diagram to answer the questions below:

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    A dialog appears in which we can write the variable name.

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    40. What does the block do?

    Assign the value 20 to the variable num.

    41. Which block puts two numbers 2 and 4 together to form 24?

    The join blockDate 01-10-19 | Level I | 16

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    e. The block produces the above screen. True

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    A dialog appears in which we can write the variable name.

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    Assign the value 20 to the variable num.

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    The join blockDate 01-10-19 | Level I | 16

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    e. The block produces the above screen. True

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    A dialog appears in which we can write the variable name.

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    Assign the value 20 to the variable num.

    41. Which block puts two numbers 2 and 4 together to form 24?

    The join blockDate 01-10-19 | Level I | 16

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    True

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    A dialog appears in which we can write the variable name.

    39. To create a variable for, we should go to the Variables category.

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    Assign the value 20 to the variable num.

    41. Which block puts two numbers 2 and 4 together to form 24?

    The join blockDate 01-10-19 | Level I | 16

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    True

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    A dialog appears in which we can write the variable name.

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    40. What does the block do?

    Assign the value 20 to the variable num.

    41. Which block puts two numbers 2 and 4 together to form 24?

    The join block

    Reply
  33. Sarah Barker Post author

    I'm watching this while one of my teeth are aching, but I'm sure that my pain is nothing compared to hers.

    Reply
  34. jasmine martinez Post author

    I have pre diabetes and I thought it suck but what this girl is suffering is horrible I hope they find a cure

    Reply

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